How many times can you start over at weight watchers?

Weight Watchers would say as many times as you need!! We live taking your money. I am one of those people who judge my worth on my weight and looks!! I am almost 44 years old and still feel like a failure. Fat face! Yuck!! I am an intelligent and well accomplished in my life yet I let this flaw take over and consume me. I joined the gym today and the two girls were arguing that one was way fatter then the other. I could have picked them both up and bench pressed them no problem. I guess even skinny girls
Feel inadequate! What is up with that?? Okay, starting again today on diet, on cant say diet, I mean healthy living!!